From Tracie: -2010

Thursday, December 31, 2009


Here it is....the last day of 2009.  I have been reading a lot of thoughtful, nostalgic blogs the last couple of days.  Everyone is evaluating their lives over the past year and making plans and resolutions for the one to come.  For me this past year has been one of dramatic changes and no changes at all.  (Does that even make sense outside of my brain?)  I am looking forward to new life decisions in 2010.....moving forward in so many different ways......Changing some things and leaving others the way they are.  How is that for cryptic??  I never have been a person who is open and sharing, and it is the same about resolutions and decisions.  I have a hard time opening up about those things.  Growing up in a family cycle of secrecy doesn't really make for an open sharing adult, but I try to work on this.  It isn't that I don't want to have accountability, I really do, but sometimes things are beyond my control, and no matter how much I would love to change them, there is nothing that I can do.  So why share those things?   And there is that feeling of inadequacy.  I do not want to share a hope or dream, only to have it publicly dashed if it doesn't work out the way I planned.  There is also the thought that you never know who is reading this blog (except of course that I do, because I can see you people even when you don't comment....think about that lurkers!!!) 

This year Katarina is starting a Precept study on James.  I want to be very intentional about helping her to achieve her memorization goals (remind me to pick up some index cards!) I would also like to be more intentional about my own scripture memorization goals.   Jenny, you do inspire me!

I am probably most excited about the work that the Army of Angels is going to do this year and the conference coming up toward the end of the year!  Working for and with survivors of sexual abuse.....inspiring and empowering all survivors of abuse to heal and lead joyful lives.  I can't think of a better resolution than that!  Spreading the word about Angela Shelton and the movement that has been born out of her story and movie.  And encouraging everyone to get trained in Darkness to Light's Stewards of Children program.  2010 is a great year to protect children!

I am still thinking about talking to that cousin of mine about his childhood memories.  We will see how courageous I can be about that!  We have been writing and communicating just about normal life stuff.  Rebuilding a relationship from my childhood is a victory for me!

I want to try to figure out Twitter.....I have resisted it for a long time, but I am giving it a try this year for real.  Feel free to check out all of my exciting chirps!  (I still refuse to call them just bugs me!)

I have some goals and ideas for this blog during the coming up year as well, but we will have to see how that all works out (wordpress, anyone?..........scary!!)  Let me know if there is anything that you would like to see more of...or less of this year.

Knitting Squares!!  I plan to knit more squares this year.  Since I got a digital camera for Christmas I will be able to post a picture of my next batch before I send them out (once we get them knitted!)  I am so grateful to Beautiful Dreamer for writing about this on her blog!  Katarina and I have enjoyed knitting squares. 

I know this will be a year of big changes and I am praying that they will all be in line with God's will for me and my family.  That we will become settled (or not) and walk down the right path with jobs and school and homeschool and everything else.  It is a little exciting and a lot scary.   What about your life??  Any big plans for the year?


  1. It has been quite a year hasn't it? I've been wishing it was over for more than half of it. I have a much better attitude about 2010 though. =)

  2. I think I know what you mean. I am kind of at crossroads emotionally because while there's still time to reevaluate and figure things out in my life, I've become nostalgic about who I was, who I wanted to be and where I am now. Even though living with closed emotions, maybe all you really need is a humble friend...hmm... I'm not making sense am I?

    like you, I'm going to try listing down the things I want to (try to) do. Happy new year Tracie

  3. Happy New Year Tracie!!!

    You are a beautiful person. May God bless you and your family now and in the new year!

  4. Hi Tracie,
    Thanks for sharing such a sweet, endearing post.
    I held onto every word and I hear you loud and clear. The work that you do with the Army of Angels is so worthwhile and who better than you to be their voice.
    You are a good person and I have enjoyed reading your blogs. I'm looking forward to the new year and connecting again.

  5. I have enjoyed so many posts today with bloggers sharing their new year's intention. Sadly, all I could come up with so far is: My new year's resolution is to take down my Christmas tree.

    More will come but it takes time.

  6. Happy New Year Tracie!!! I am so thankful I 'met' you!! I wish you nothing but success and happiness this year!

  7. I did not know you had twitter! Followed you!! I am sure you will get the hang of it; it just takes a while. :)

    Happy New Year, Tracie!

  8. Happy New Year, Tracie!

  9. I've thought about the Wordpress thing too. But I have no computer skills so I don't think it's for me.

    I hope you have a wonderful 2010!