I can feel the strings of peace stretched over my day. They weave a net over and around me - something to grab hold of when the day feels unmanageable. I measure those strings of peace in hours, sometimes minutes.
Two minutes to read a blog post, and leave a quick comment. I wish it could be more, but the emotions are overwhelming, and all I can bear is a short, "I am praying for you today." Short, but very real.
Minutes for that prayer...for more prayer...names flitting across my mind demanding attention.
Five minutes to listen to a song while I wait for nine o'clock to arrive.
Four minutes to make the oatmeal. Add a splash of milk. One minute to stir. Breakfast is ready.
Thirty minutes for math pages. I sneak in a few emails, read the closed captioning on the news, answer a question, peek at facebook. I feel the connections in these minutes - my daughter working, the world spinning on, updates from people I love and people I don't really know. Sometimes those updates feel like a punch in my stomach; sometimes they bring a small smile or a huge laugh; sometimes they bring tears.
I grab out for the strings of peace. I count the minutes. I think of prayers prayed in order. "A script" the judgmental voices in my mind mock. "Peace" the whisper of my soul answers.
I hold on to the strings of peace. Hand over hand. Swinging from string to string throughout the day; they deliver me safely to the shore on the other side - to sleep, and quiet, and time to recharge for the new day that is coming.
Stream Of Consciousness Sunday Prompt: How do you deal with things? My mind thought of dealing with life, and this was what my heart wrote. I passed the five minute mark, but I could not stop typing until my heart was silent.
What brings peace to your life?
How do you deal with the moments that are less than peaceful?