Writing for you. Sending words out into the world.
I should probably be happy it took fourteen days for me to hit a dark day. There are a lot of months for which fourteen days would be a record. In those fourteen days I've blogged from a friend's house, blogged with a painful infection after a tooth extraction, and I even blogged after pulling my back out last week. I have blogged. But those obstacles were scheduling conflicts and physical pain. I'm pretty good at working through that kind of stuff. A dark day is different.
A dark day is mental. Emotional. Exhausting. It takes all of my brain power to stay present in the moment. On dark days all the words I had planned (today was going to be an ode to the apostrophe) run and hide, leaving me a little lost. It is not prime blogging time.
This morning I watched Trouble With The Curve. It is a baseball movie. Clint Eastwood. Amy Adams. Justin Timberlake. I know it didn't receive rave reviews, but I was loving every minute of it.
I was okay with the father/daughter relationship portion of the story for most of the movie, but as it progressed, I felt a familiar tightness in my chest and tears in my eyes. Then they threw in an attempted child molestation situation. Clint Eastwood rescued his daughter. He made mistakes in the process, and he unwittingly hurt her in the years that followed, but his heart's goal was to protect her. By the end of the movie, they are working on moving forward together. And I was a tearful puddle of emotions and snot.
This is the truth you might not see here everyday...
Sometimes I watch a movie, or read a book, and it messes me up for the entire day.
It is amazing to see how a story can touch someone's day or even their life. That is a powerful thing, but it isn't always easy. When it happens to me, I usually get quiet, and spend time inside my own head instead of writing out loud for the world. Sometimes not being able to string together words on the screen feels like a prison. I would love to break free, but that isn't always a choice I get to make.
Today I wrote anyway. That feels like a victory. Thanks NaBloPoMo.
Have you ever been really touched by a movie or book?