Life is short.
We don't get a whole lot of years on earth to do this life thing.
My grandma will have her 90th birthday this month.
90 years feels long, but it isn't. Not really.
And I feel pressured to do more, be more, jump higher.
But then I hear a small voice telling me it is okay. I'm okay. Right where I am today. Not that I will always stay here, but for today it is okay. And I feel peace.
At this point, I think a better blogger than me would have a snazzy picture with a perfect quote. Something about making every second count, or regrets being all your fault, because you didn't shoot higher and reach for more opportunities.
Just the thought of it makes me feel the pressure returning.
Sometimes I feel attacked by those quotes when I see them shared on social media. They are meant to be inspirational, but instead they just feel like a punch in the face, telling me all the ways I'm failing.
I'm not always so good at inspirational.
Although I did make this picture for a friend once:
This is where my heart is. I wish good things for us, you and me.
I hope that in the time we have, we are accomplishing, honoring, inspiring, living fully, overcoming, healing, growing, transforming, learning new things, feeling and giving love, dancing, connecting, noticing beauty, dreaming, being a testimony, living in spirit and truth, being a light, having fun, living big....I wish, and I hope, and I pray.
But I don't know that those things always look the way we imagine them. A quiet life can still be powerful. It isn't all jumping out of planes and conquering mountains. And if time really is short (it is), I don't want to waste any of it feeling judged by an image on social media.
So when you are scrolling through your newsfeed, and feel punched in the face by judgement cloaked as inspiration, know that I wish for you a field of yellow flowers - or whatever it is that would make you feel joy. And know that it is enough to be you, where you are right now.
Transformations and changes and movement will happen, but for today, you can rest. And in that rest, I hope you find the kind of inspiration that feels like a warm hug on a rainy day.