But as I listened, something snuck past that scary peace and shattered the numbness. These words, which could have destroyed me, were tempered with a grace and mercy that I could feel. And I was so very thankful.
God took this thing, and used it as a blessing. When I realized what was happening, real peace settled over me. Not the scary, numbing kind of peace, but the peace that says, "I've got this. You will be okay." Tears still fall, and life still happens, but there are also second chances, and provisions from God showing up when they are so desperately needed.
On a holiday week that is a lot about pilgrims, and harvests (which I know very little about) and parades, and turkeys (which are not my favorite), and family (who are far away), I usually give some obligatory thoughts to thankfulness and move on. But this year, I feel a thankfulness, a peace, and even an optimism, that I did not expect.
I am thankful....God has got my back, and it is going to be okay.